My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

Lớp 11 mình rất chăm chỉ ra hàng net ở bưu điện tỉnh, chỉ mỗi nghe nhạc. Rất thường nghe "Bring me to life" trên youtube nên dần khám phá ra "My immortal" và được thêm ngay vào danh sách những bài nhất định nghe khi ra quán net :D . Sau đó có "đặt hàng" Vietpie làm một đĩa rock, "My immortal" là bài thứ 18 trong 20 bài của đĩa (để mở cho nhanh từ cuối lên). Bài này không hiểu bị lỗi sao đó mà bị cắt từ đoạn chơi nhạc cuối bài. Nhưng kể ra mình lại thấy không có đoạn chơi nhạc đó lại hay hơn :D, cảm xúc thống nhất từ đầu tới cuối (mặc dù cũng không rõ có thêm đoạn chơi nhạc thì cảm xúc khác đi như thế nào).

Hôm trước đến phòng chị Trang Quạ nghe được bài này trong 1 list nhạc. "Gu" nghe nhạc chị này khá giống mình, cũng giúp mình biết thêm nhiều bài hát hay (điển hình như "Tell me why" của Declan).

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Hồi lớp 9, "MTV" trên VTV3 luôn là 1 chương trình được mong đợi mỗi 11h30 trưa chủ nhật. Đó là "kênh" duy nhất để mình nghe những bài hát quốc tế "mới" (đối với mình). Mình thích hầu như tất cả những bài hát được chiếu, đặc biệt là những bài nhạc rock như của Avril Lavigne, Green Day, Simple Plan... (nhưng anh Hưng thì rất không thích mình xem chương trình này :D). Và sáng thứ 2 trong giờ chào cờ mình có thể ngồi "tám" với Thùy Vân về những bài hát mà cả 2 đứa đều thích. "Welcome to my life" là một bài như thế. Hồi đó Vân rất mê Avril (giờ hết rồi). Lần cuối cùng mình biết tin về Vân là lúc mình gọi điện đến nhà Vân hôm thi tốt nghiệp 12 (tuy Vân không ở nhà), bây giờ thì không biết thế nào.

"Ở trường tau có một đứa con gái nhìn y như con trai, đẹp trai cực :D" . "Thật á? Hâm mộ :) ". "Ừ, biết chơi cả guitar nữa. Bữa trước hắn hát "Welcome to my life" răng mà thấy giống bạn Ly cực, mình nỏ hát được như rứa". "Hi hi, thật à? ^^". "Ừ". Thế là phóng ào ào trên đường Bưởi dọc sông Tô Lịch, gào "Do you ever feel like breaking down" váng cả đường, mặc "nạn nhân" ngồi sau khẩn cầu "Ly, hát nhỏ nhỏ thôi, bạn rầy tề" :D .

"Do you wanna be somebody else, Linh?" "Yes, sometimes"...

Anywhere

I remember it was long ago
But when I think of her I fell it grow
Something begs me to come home again
Something I can hardly stand

But I'm to defy, I have to ignore her cry
I don't know what to do, I'm missing you so bad

Waiting for tomorrow, for a little ray of light
Waiting for tomorrow just to see your smile again
Take away my sorrow from a blistered heart of mine
Where are you now if you are there anywhere

Please forgive me for how I decide
But before I can come with rapid strides
Don't expect you'll have to understand
Jakob needs my helping hand

First I have to go one out of two ways
Wich both are wrong and I'm to go
So afraid, so ashamed
So deranged - but I know...

Waiting for tomorrow, for a little ray of light
Waiting for tomorrow just to see your smile again
Take away my sorrow from a blistered heart of mine
Where are you now if you are there anywhere

Waiting for tomorrow, for a little ray of light...
I can't wait for you - Are you there - anywhere

Nothing to say... Just listening...

On The Way Home

Cái này chẳng biết có thể coi là một bức ảnh không nữa :D . Thực ra nó là tấm chụp hỏng (vốn định chụp cái khác), nhưng xong rồi lại thấy hay hay, thích thích nên không nỡ xóa :) .

Khe Hẹp

Ngõ Nhỏ

Một buổi trưa đi ra bến xe bus từ con ngõ nơi mình ở tạm mấy ngày.

Wind

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize.
Motivate your anger to make them all realize.
Climbing the mountain, never coming down.
Break into the contents, never falling down.

My knee is still shaking, like I was twelve,
Sneaking out of the classroom, by the back door.
A man railed at me twice though, but I didn't care.
Waiting is wasting for people like me.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.

(Repeats)

You say, "Dreams are dreams.
"I ain't gonna play the fool anymore."
You say, "'Cause I still got my soul."

Take your time, baby, your blood needs slowing down.
Breach your soul to reach yourself before you gloom.
Reflection of fear makes shadows of nothing, shadows of nothing.

You still are blind, if you see a winding road,
'Cause there's always a straight way to the point you see.

Don't try to live so wise.
Don't cry 'cause you're so right.
Don't dry with fakes or fears,
'Cause you will hate yourself in the end.